Thursday, August 9, 2012

A dream coming true

It's been almost a year since I last posted a blog in this site. Yes, your guess may be right. I've been too busy with both family life and work. Work took it's toll on me that last month, when my boss arrived from a month long vacation, I submitted my resignation letter. Yes I resigned after a 9-year stint as the Head of the Administrative Unit of Haribon Foundation, a non-government environmental organization.

As much as I love what I do with the organization, family should always come first. Since the onset of 2012, I found myself more "called" by my role as a mother
, wife, sister and daughter.

January came in with so much hope. Me and my husband had plans for this year, for the two of us and for our dear children. Unfortunately though, by mid of January, we found out the my mother was suffering from breast cancer, the rare one - Inflammatory Breast Cancer. Since then, she was in and out of the hospital, bills shoot up and eventually in June, she joined our Creator. This experience somehow put a break on our plans. Most of our savings went to helping out with the expenses, though there's no regret to this.
We had to set aside, rather postpone our planned plans.

Simultaneous to this, my children's nanny told us that she was on the family way and has to leave by March. I accepted the fact easily, I knew it was the right thing to do, regardless if i find a replacement or not. Besides, based on my experience, or was I just lucky back then, it was easy to find a nanny. But maybe this time, luck wasn't
on my side, since the time she left, I found no nanny to take care of our children :-(.

These events plus my work gave out enough stress and tension on my personal being. For the first few months of 2012, I tried so hard juggling work, motherhood and family relationships. But then, by doing so, life became chaotic. I wasn't doing work well anymore, our children were forced to come with either me or my husband's workplace, and, I had to squeeze in taking care of my mom (although I have siblings, I can't leave it all up to them, besides, I'm the eldest, they refer to me for major decisions). It made me realize that there is no such thing as multi-tasking. There's one good thing that happened to me though...a granted birthday wish (though months ahead before my birthday in July), I got the desired weight...lost more than 10 pounds!!!

In spite of the above, I was still able to look at the good side of the things happening to me. The experiences made me a more responsible person, not just for myself but most especially for the people I cared for. The demise of our mother thought me to be less vengeful and more loving. Acting on the call of motherhood "set" my priorities, that's why leaving the organization isn't too difficult on me. I firmly believe that when one door closes, another one opens to a brighter future.

Embracing motherhood is more than just a priority, it's a dream coming true...


Anonymous said...

I can relate to your story :) I'm a mother of 4 kids and I left the corporate life 7 years ago with fear if we can really manage and survive but after seven years, we're still alive and kicking :)You might face a lot of struggles but you will make it. Blogging offered a lot of opportunity for us and I hope it will be the same with you too ;) God bless! - Juliet

hahai.ponce said...

Thanks Juliet!

It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this endeavor...although my hubby is very much supportive of my decision, people like you and your kinds words makes me more confident and affirms that I'm on the right track.

God Bless you, too!